MY BROTHER IN ISLAM

My brother Ucok has played our heart dearly and without mercy. For such a long time we have prayed that he will find a light in his messy life, and end the difficulties he puts on our shoulders. We are getting older, we need to take a rest from his problems and think more of our own business. Indeed he was the trouble maker since he was only an elementary student. He made papa n mama busy to deal with the teachers who complaint his bad behaviors. Naturally all will stop. We say to our self often and often that he will change one day, he will pay back his entire bad manner with a kindness that surprises all of us.

Yet, the change in his life does not show any good progress even after he married Siska. I found no year in his marriage without financial difficulties. Our parent gave all they have to support him. I became the one who sponsored his work and paid his debt. I cry in front of Allah, please stop the trials to our family especially after Mama passed away. Allah now talk to us through this ….

My brother has joined an Islamic stream that evades from the true Islamic values. As a journalist he should know that stream is not in Islam anymore since it doesn’t ask the followers to do praying and fasting and some rituals as strongly pushed to do in Islam. Ucok was even daring to ask Papa to join the group . He becomes the loyal follower of that group now. This shocks our family!

Finally I have to decide! Do not  think of him anymore. It’s enough…enough….and enough! I don’t have any resources to give to him anymore. The poor in my surrounding need to be cared. Alhamdulillah, HE release me from Ucok and Mama no need to experience all messy he caused. Of course I still pray that someday he will be my brother in Islam again, realize that he has lost the only family he has, who loves and supports him very much.